so it’s been awhile, but i’ve been busy.
things have been moving so fast.
i got my first apartment with meghan. we’re going to move in when i get back from spain.
speaking of which, i leave tomorrow!
i’m nervous, excited, not tired at all…
anyway, i’m not sure how reliable the internet will be… i’ll try to update this a lot.
whew. also, i hate packing.
and i kissed another boy.
when i woke up, i felt weird.
i talked to meghan.
maybe it’s time for some change?
it’s been awhile since i’ve been single.
i dunno what to do, everything is just so comfortable.
but i’m sick of that, in a way.
i just want something to be exciting again.
“waiting for superman”
it was good, but depressing.
i keep wondering if i’m making the right choice, becoming a teacher.
but i think that i can make some small kind of difference.
right?
to everyone!
april seems to be a popular month.
last night was so fun„,
pink wine, cigarettes, and weed.
too fun. and ziggies!!
so loud, so innocent.
everyone was so honest.
i can’t explain it.
but i swear,
every time you drink too much,
i like you more and more.
it’s too much.
and parking garages.
too many smokes, lots of laughs.
it was fun,
and for a short second,
i hoped that you were smiling right at me.
it’s overwhelming, but i just feel sort of numb sometimes.
it’s also hard to explain.
and i feel like there’s no one that wants to listen.
i've nothing to give you but fingernails or eyelashes, or melted pianos, or dreams that bubble up from my heart
